Sunday Update

Hi there guys, just the usual Sunday update. As you can see I have re posted my paintings for sale  at a reduced price and I know its way below the value, but due to circumstance's I have had to make this decision

Its been a stressful day as both our old computers gave in the ghost. After many hours we seem to have sorted out the problem. I am a little relieved at this prospect. But as I have said I have to postpone projects due to lack of resources (computer wise) and will have to save as I do not solicit funds but rather fund myself via my personal savings.

Having survived 18yrs of been HIV+ gives me the passion to empower all those affected or infected by HIV/AIDS in South Africa. Designing a surplus data base and website takes alot of time and that is why I need to upgrade our current computer and buy a laptop so that I can always be available and send progress reports on a daily basis.

Always remember that you can survive HIV as I have by living life to the fullest and making sure that you are in good health.

The only gift I can give to you all, is my story of success and the zest for life in sharing and empowering all those that I meet and talk to you.

May you have a blessed day.

Love Mark



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Paintings For Sale Repost R5000 for all paintings

These are some of the paintings I have placed for sale. If you have further queries please contact me.

This week in review

Its a cloudy cool day today and the rest period has begun for myself and partner. Life second by second is so special.

No matter what has transpired over the last week, I have not lost focus on my vision and projects.

This upcoming week is going to be interesting and will give me time to publish some poems, philosophy and a few other notations that I have made over the years.

I am going to advertise my paintings again for sale and those who are visiting the photo's are on the left hand side slide show.

Later today I will update with news from South Africa and the Southern African Region and my personal views.

Life life to the fullest no matter what may come your way.

Please email me if you would like to comment or just communicate with me.

markgavinfarrell@gmail.com

Friday Morning update 07H24 am

Well this week has been stressful and highly emotional both at work and at home.

My projects on still on hold at this current financial climate with strikes looming and violence on our doorstop by the nation due to the high prices which has affected the world.

Things look really bleak. Zimbabwe on a daily basis smuggling out videos and photo's of torture and violence while the South African government looks on.

Its all so sad. Have we lost our humanity? Are we all going mad, knowing that you have a dictator and things may turn out like Rwanda.

But, I have to concern myself with the peoples of my own nation who are suffering from HIV/AIDS and those who don't even have the basic rights to water, housing and electricity for many years.

Daily we have thousands of people dying in Africa and in South Africa on daily basis someone dies of AIDS related illness.

The foremost responsibility is to your nation, to uphold the constitution, protect, serve and provide a service to the peoples of South Africa!

Its not easy been a small fry in this war against injustice and HIV/AIDS, poverty and human rights.

Although I have dedicated my life to this cause, its not always easy to keep up with the financial stress of not been able to survive or even buy a computer or laptop.

I have learnt you have to rely on yourself and not on others in life, (taken into context of course) as many have promised to help me but have not. Have demanded time from me and resources and promised many things but have not delivered.

None of these things have made a negative impact on my personal vision.

So guys, well its off to work for me and then a week long holiday thanks to our government.

Please pray for me and my country and the Southern African region.

Once again you are most welcome to email me or sign my guest book.

I am open to critism and welcome any comments you may have.

Been transparent has always been my goal.

Thank you for reading my blog

Mark Farrell  

Stand your ground and stand firm

No matter what happens due to circumstances out of our control and other negative actions brought on by others through their own vindictive actions, don't let your inner self surrender to depression and demise!

 

You might feel that the dragon has spewed out lava and the demons of hell surround you.

Thrown out to the Lions and the jeers of the crowds who wish your demise

Been ripped apart by emotions of guilt and remorse due to the unrightcheous ideologies of your accusers.

But yet, they themselves stay in glass houses with glass shattered and the fragments of other lives that have transgressed.

Feeding on the weakness of others and denying the Holocaust and facts of history.

Declaring themselves the saviours and Spanish Inquisition of this millennium.

But.....justice will prevail as in the past of history. No matter how long, their injustices and malignant passions will be exposed and they will face the full wrath of the world and this nation.

We shall endeavour to protect you with all our heart and soul and in the end you will be vindicated.

Remember, that you do have the strength to face all conditions that Christ gives you.

I will gladly lay down my life for you in this quest of saving your dignity and uphold your integrity.

"You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free"

Many shall abandon you in this troubled time as they fear the unknown, for they do not have God in their lives.

Man should not fear the unknown, but thank Him for anything that might come his way, pick up the pieces, reconcile and be a stronger person.

Empowered with wisdom, integrity, love and the knowledge of unconditional support and love through friendship.

Dear friends, at this time as stated in my last post an incident has transpired to one of my ex work colleagues and she is going through a very very difficult time and we her friends, will stand by her side no matter what transpires.

To many of us, run at the sight of adverse problems brought on by others that infringe our dignity and integrity. We are not like that and will surety in our heart we stand by our friends, no matter what the rest of the world thinks.

Remember that when you least expect it, an army shall rise from the ashes from the silence of the night, they shall encamp you and protect you from the enemy.

Hold you head high and be strong, knowing that you have support from all corners of the earth.

This dedication is for Karin my friend......................

Mark Farrell

Please keep my in your prayers

Dear friends, please keep me in your daily prayers as we go through a tough time, but I know we shall overcome in the end.

These last few days have been high stress related and has taken a physical and mental toll on myself and partner.

One request is that when you pray us, ask that He takes care of us and all the peoples that are either affected or infected by HIV/AIDS in Africa.

The Lord knows my needs and been selfless in my ways, my wants do not come before those who are suffering from HIV/AIDS who have nothing and are cold in the winter or do not have food.

That He will open the doors to enable me to continue to work which he has laid out for me to accomplish.

There is no greater gift than wisdom and compassion.

Thank you my friends, and always remember you are welcome to email me, I am at your service.

Live life to the fullest

Mark Farrell

Dedication to Karin our friend in need

This is an affirmation of dedication of friendship for our friend Karin whom I used to work with us.

No matter what transpires or the adversary that might come your way, we will stand by you and your integrity.

We have always believed in you and your kindness, honesty and unconditional love towards others.

No matter what mire or quick sand you may be in, you shall not be alone and we shall be there with outstretched hands towards you.

For utmost you are our friend and we value every second spent with you.

What ever troubles come in the future we will prevail the storms and hold you high, for you are our friend.

This is dedicated to Karin whom is going through a very tough time.

Love Mark….and partner

Wednesday's update

Autumn is here and you can see the change in nature all around you. Life has all four seasons too and no matter what season you may be in, life is still beautiful.

Currently I am facing challenges on all fronts and I accept it as part of the schooling of life.

Once you have passed a test with flying colours you can then pass on those coping mechanisms to others who may be in the same situation as you where.

We are all overcomers and we should be inspired by our inner selves and the flame of passion for success and life.

No matter how dark and stormy the weather may be, there is always someone out there that will keep you warm in the days of winter and give you water in the days of drought of summer.

May you all of a blessed day and empower all those around you with compassion and love.

Hi guys, exhausted and tired

Well I have arrived home tonight and we are buggered. The stress factor amongst other things is taking its toll. My face is starting to go numb once again as it once did when I had the angina some time ago and its quite scary.

My finger tips are going numb and I have constant discomfort on the left hand side of my face. This is delayed stress from Friday but, I believe that this will all pass when this coming week we both will be able to rest for a while, although I will be taking calls for Tuesday and Wednesday at home, but at least I will be at home.

My prayer is that someone will sponsor me a laptop so that I can continue my projects but now I am feeling down and tired and I believe that you will understand why by the previous early entries.

I am just to exhausted to even try and write to companies and present them my projects which have received approval but no assistance to fulfil them.

But, I will never surrender my dream and the hope of Africa. No matter how bad things may seem and the negative health impact I am experiencing, will never waiver me from my mission in life.

Thank you to all of those who have provided emotional support. Please remember to perform your random act of kindness to all those around you.

My heart go's out to all of you and may you all be blessed.

To all my HIV+ friends, hold on to what is precious and although I am going through a trying period, remember, I have always said that you can overcome all and you will see that I will.

Live life to the fullest

Monday, 21 April 2008 11:25:20 PM

 

Well since last Friday we all have been under a lot physical and emotional stress and at this time can’t reveal much of what has transpired to cause us all this lot of pain.

 

My partner is in agony again as I just woke up and this is due to all of the above. He is in so much muscle pain all over his body and his screams woke me up. I have just given him medication and I really do think he needs to start ARV therapy ASAP!

 

Due to my many years of been HIV+ and symptoms, I am aware that this is not good for his immune status. This is all very scary and disconcerting to see him in this way after recovering from the last incident of pain. It always starts with stress but he keeps on going and puts on this brave face although he is not well.

 

Been through all of these symptoms and have shown the braveness but one has to listen to your body and rest. He and I need to take a break from work and just rest and that will only happen from this coming Sunday. I just hope this cloud that is hanging over us will clear up so that we can all move on with out lives.

 

I am humbled by all the challenges that come our way and this current one is a very difficult one with adverse affects to our personal health. My concern is for my dear friend who has gone through more than us, as it has affected her on a very personal level and I think of her each day and pray that God will bless her and hold her by the hand.

 

There is so much to tell my friends but due to certain laws I can’t reveal too much at this time, but I can assure you that the truth always prevails and it will set you free and justice will prevail in the end.

 

So remember no matter what may come your way, stand up for truth and your dignity. At this time I can only comment on the emotional side and not on the incident until such time as I am free to do so.

 

My message is there is always hope in truth and friends should stick together through what may seem the darkest hour and lead each other into the light.

 

Once again all projects are on hold and due to the changing financial climate here in South Africa we are all suffering financial strain from the poorest to the middle class income earners with the high inflation and food costs.

 

One can hardly afford the basics anymore. What is happening to South Africa? Will all the denial’s from our governments side about the crisis that is about to unfold in our region, I really don’t know.

 

But, still I don’t give up and will always be there for all those affected and infected by HIV/AIDS to my dying breath. At this time there is not much I can do except through this blog of mine. Been not able to buy myself a lap top (my personal savings) has really upset me, but once again I have to thank God for my life and that I have a roof over my head and a loving partner.

My fear is that my partner and I will have to leave this country one day as we would not survive if we had to stay. I in return would have to work from foreign soil to continue my work and further his and my career so that we can help those in our own country.

 

But, that remains to be seen…….

 

We have civil war about to break out in Zimbabwe and it concerns me that it will no doubt affect our own country with the influx of hungry scared refugees on an over burdened South African society.

 

‘I wish someone would do something about Mugabe before genocide takes place in Zimbabwe and blood flows in the streets of the innocents!”

 

By our own governments silence its just dam right silly to watch people been detained and massacred by the ruling party of Zimbabwe! Many say well you live in Africa, I say well there is still humanity in Africa!

 

As a white South African and in the minority, I am still South African and proud of it.

 

We need to stand together is this time of crisis and stand up and make a stand for all human rights for all the people’s of Africa!

 

Well that is all for today guys I am really tired please if you wish to contact me email me – markgavinfarrell@gmail.com

 

Love and peace

 

Mark Farrell

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Arm Shipment For Zimbabwe

South African dockers are refusing to unload a Chinese cargo ship carrying 77 tonnes of small arms destined for Zimbabwe.

The arms, including three million rounds of ammunition suitable for AK47s and 1,500 rocket-propelled grenades, were ordered by the Zimbabwean military at the time of the March 29 election – which Britain and other Western powers have accused Robert Mugabe of trying to rig.

The arms arrived at Durban, South Africa, on Wednesday aboard the Chinese-owned An Yue Jiang and must be taken by road to landlocked Zimbabwe, where the Government has been accused of arming rural militias before a possible run-off vote for the presidency. The opposition Movement for Democratic Change (MDC) has even accused Mr Mugabe's Zanu (PF) of preparing for a "war" against the people.

January Masilela, the South African Defence Secretary, said yesterday that the shipment had been approved this week by the National Conventional Arms Control Committee (NCACC), which he chairs. "This is a normal transaction between two sovereign states and we don't have to interfere," he said.

But opposition parties slammed the decision to grant the transit permit and the country's main transport union said that its members would refuse to unload the cargo.

“We do not believe it will be in the interest of the Zimbabwean people in general if South Africa is seen to be a conduit of arms and ammunition into Zimbabwe at a time when the situation could be described as quite volatile,” said Randall Howard, a spokesman for the South African Transport and Allied Workers Union (SATAWU

“As far as we are concerned the containers will not be offloaded”.

Rafeek Shah, defence spokesman for the Democratic Alliance, the main South African opposition party, added: "The world's astonishment at President Mbeki's political defence of Robert Mugabe will likely turn into outright anger as we are now not only denying the existence of a crisis in Zimbabwe, but also actively facilitating the arming of an increasingly despotic and desperate regime."

AfriForum, a regional business lobby group, has said that it would organise protests along the shipment's route. The South African Institute of Race Relations said that if the shipment goes ahead, "South Africa's culpability in the Zimbabwe crisis would then be without question."

Meanwhile, the South African Government's decision to allow transit of the shipment was the subject of an urgent legal challenge at the Durban High Court.

Nicole Fritz, head of the Southern African Litigation Centre, told Times Online that under the 2002 National Convention on Arms Control, which the NCACC monitors, the permit should not have been granted. That law, she said, specifically prohibits the shipment of arms that will "contribute to internal repression".

In addition, allowing the arms shipment would violate South Africa's international commitments under a range of agreements including the 1996 Wassenaar Arrangement.

"This is a very clear example of a situation in which the committee will be obliged to review a permit," she said, predicting that the High Court would order a stay on the shipment.

There have been persistent reports about Chinese arms sales to Zimbabwe, although the details are hard to pin down.

Zimbabwe announced in 2006 that it had bought six fighter jets from China, adding to a fleet of six it bought the previous year in a deal believed to be based on barter – with China obtaining precious mineral raw materials needed in its economic boom.

Zimbabwean officials said that the aircraft deal also included the purchase of 100 military vehicles from China to replace existing items that were no longer operational since Western sanctions halted imports of spare parts and maintenance equipment.

China’s sales of military hardware are believed to have amounted to more than US$200 million in recent years. There have also been reports that the Chinese have sold water cannons and mobile phone bugging equipment to the security forces in Harare – although it is not clear whether or not those sales were instigated by companies operating outside the control of central government.

Mr Howard, the SATAWU spokesman, said that the An Jue Yiang was carrying 36 containers, 30 of which were equipment for the mining industry in South Africa and Botswana.

“The balance is earmarked for Zimbabwe, four of which have arms and ammunition in them and the other two military aircraft ejector seats," he said.

Its really bizarre that the peoples of South Africa have to stand up and refuse to have the shipment of arms sent to Zimbabwe and our own government (South African) makes statements "there is no crisis" and that there is no embargo.

My question is Mr.President if these arms kill and the arms spill over into our country and kill people, who is responsible. Not only that we could have another genocide in Zimbabwe by Mugabe!

Then Mr.President you are just as responsible for all the death and mayhem if such an incident should occur and both should be charged by the Hague for murder.  (International Tribunal For War Crimes Against Humanity)

So before this can happen seize the arms and destroy them.

This is just my personal view.......

Save Africa !

Peace and tranquility

Sometimes we city dwellers forget the tranquility and peace that nature brings us. We need to take some time out for ourselves and rediscover our inner being. Redirect and focus on the future and listen to what our inner soul is telling us. Enhance our lives through constant renewal of our goals in life.

No matter what ill may befall one, one can overcome all, through perseverance and beliefs in ones self capabilities.

In my life I have implemented that ideology and mindset and have overcome many obstacles that have come my way and so can you.

You have to embrace life

I want to tell you a parable about a bond of friendship that stood an onslaught and strengthened this band of friends. One day a friend at work stood accused of a crime from a previous employer which was not true. An army of police turned up and took her computer and laptop and searched her house

 

But her friends stood by her through thick and thin and embraced her with love and commitment to see her through the troubled time. As they all knew and had the facts that she was innocent and this person who accused her was nothing but a vindictive crazed beast bent on destruction of an innocent person. Unknown to them they opened the door to truth about their own secrete activities soon to be exposed and their own demise.

 

But through all of this her friends remained by her side no matter what time of day they where at her call. Such my friends are quality friendship when friends stand up for each other in the time of need and offer themselves in love and compassion.

 

In the end she was victorious as truth always prevails.

 

The lesson is, no matter what comes your way as a friend you should stand your moral ground and defend the honour of your friend and when the time arises that his/her integrity is breached you will stand and defend.

 

Let us stand together and live life to the fullest and live up to our promises of friendship to all our friends

 

Mark Farrell

 

Oil is at $112!

It just seems in South Africa things are just going to get worse and due to the oil price been over $112 things for the consumer are just going affect us all in a very negative way.

The government has launched new R1000 bonds but, who is going to have spare cash to buy a bond. I know that the point is to try and get us to save but this does not help the poor who are going to suffer will all the prices soaring every week now.

I will have to further tighten my belt as the many thousands of South Africans do. Last night on the news hundreds of South Africans are leaving for other countries and I cant blame them.

The sad thing is no matter what country you move to the global price of oil is affecting every country and its the poorer countries who are suffering the most.

It does not help quench the anger of the people who riot and loot shops. The innocent who don't have anything to do with the oil price suffer.

I foresee troubled waters for Africa and South Africa is the oil price increases almost on a daily basis. It will cause those who are poor to rise out of desperation and take to the streets.

For once its not our governments fault but they should exempt even more foods from VAT in this time of crisis, so that it can benefit even the poor of the poor.

Allow subsidies for the basic commodities, so that all have access to basic foods.

But of course this is just my personal point of view.

So once again I rethink the possibility of leaving South Africa for another country and been able to work there and work on my projects but that is only a dream for me.

My love for South Africa is unquestionable as well as my loyalty to all its people.

Let us stand together as a nation and give of ourselves and tend to the poor if we can.

Let us take the poor by the hand if we go into a recession and try and assist where ever we can.

Well this is just my point of view guys....

Have a great day..........

Paintings for sale slide show

I have uploaded photo's of my paintings as a slide show. As you know I have been struggling to save money due to been unemployed for along time.

Previously all my projects where self funded and so are the future ones that are now pending.

I have had to pay for new dentures, spectacles and health cost related issues over the last year.

This year finally I have had the opportunity and blessing to have a job and from this month I am permanent.

Its been along  journey to get to this point. I believe that one should work to earn one's keep and I have lived by that policy all my life.

Living with just the basic simple things in life has humbled me and I have never been the materialistic type of person and that has been all my life.

The sad thing is that I have had to swallow my pride earlier regarding the sale of my paintings.  I advertised and pleaded for assistance but to no avail. Well at least the people who where interested wanted to buy them at almost no cost, knowing the situation I was in, as with every interview I have been transparent.

So once again here I am again frustrated and struggling to make ends meet. Refusing to solicit but use my own personal items to raise funds.

This is just my nature. I feel so sorry for those who are less fortunate that I am. Continually I count my blessings for what I have.

So if you want to swop your laptop for my paintings please contact me as this will assist me in my projects. If you wish to purchase them for a good cause please email or call me.

Furthermore I don't have more to give or ask.

Many thanks to all my friends.

Remember there are less fortunate people than myself and my heart and soul is always with them.

Mark

Monday 14th Of April 2008 - Reflections

It seems the whole southern African region has fallen into madness and mayhem. The South African government claims there is no crisis in Zimbabwe but there is. We have a power crisis with one company Eskom who is in a monopoly of providing energy (electricity) but they cant even provide that. We here of price fixing of our basic commodities and this after bread price fixing were exposed.

The poor are suffering and even on my salary with all the increases in foods and all things just in a matter of weeks. Now the reserve bank has pushed up interest rates.

It’s all crazy and I have to be a realist and understand that oil is a major factor in this case.

We have strikes looming by trade unions because of the high prices and I support them in this case which will be rare occasion that I do support a strike. But, where will this lead us except raise the voice of the people who are unhappy and let government hear the people.

The sad thing is normally during these protests or strikes it’s the innocent shop keepers who have their shops Brocken into and goods stolen and for what purpose.

Yes there is a criminal element in all protests and strikes I do understand that but I hope this is going to be a peaceful march for all.

In the mean time there are people in South Africa who do not even have the basic rights as laid down in our constitution to basic, housing, water and so on for over 14yrs and this is a black empowered municipality run region.

What is happening to our leaders no matter what colour or race they are? Have they forgotten the poor and needy?

Coming back to Zimbabwe, the first murder took place and as the MDC warned bloodshed is about to happen. It’s all so sad. In the end it’s the poor orphans and all those in poverty who will suffer. Have not Zimbabwe suffered enough?

Stand together with me and pray for Southern African dear friends and think of us your fellow citizens of the world.

I am tired as it has been along day at work again and tomorrow is another day. I just cant wait until we have the week break, so that I can spend quality time with my family and partner.

Its been such a very long time since I have had a decent break and it would be welcome.  I will once again try and sell my paintings and will see if I can get some income from the sales. If you are interested it is listed earlier in this blog as "paintings for sale"

Life is so short and brief and we have to use every available moment to do our very best not just for ourselves but for humanity and I strive every day to do just that.

I am a little stressed as I cant progress in my projects and with the current work load it makes it so difficult. Recently a day or two ago when this computer packed in and we had to format this drive I lost allot of work, but thank god I do have hard copies.

Its been a tough month and I will have to prolong my personal savings for a laptop and I will have to wait another year or a few months before this becomes a realty.

I have said that I do not solicit funds, my entire life I have always supported myself and self funded my projects as a matter of principle and that is what my blog is all about.

Honesty, integrity and freedom of the spirit. I love life to much.

You are most welcome to contact me via email or via the communications hub link and I will respond.

Remember, HIV is not a death sentence but a lifestyle.

Look after those around you and enhance their lives through compassion and of yourself.

Share and empower those in need and you will grow.

I am tired guys and must say good night and you are all in my daily prayers.

On the 20th of May I will be blessed

On the 20th of May this year my partner upgrades his handset and will be giving this handset to me as he takes my handset. He is really so good to me. This will enable me to be online to you my friends and for all those who are using Skype, MSN, Yahoo and so on.

It will enable all of you to contact me directly when you log onto my blog and I will be able to respond to emails and link to the web no matter where I am.

This is a true blessing to look forward too and I will update you on other issues at hand. It not wi-fi which is my next investment which will put me back a little but heh, that is what is great about life.

To take life by the balls and walk with your head high. I love you all and will keep my promises no matter if it takes a little longer to work on the projects.

Joan de Arc Of France - She believed in her vision and became a great warrior

Let us not forget our vision and follow this great example of a great woman in our times.

2nd time bitten!

Well I am fuming once again went to the flea market in Milnerton and bought another Bluetooth headset and when I got home and starting charging the unit it did not charge at all. I am loosing my faith in the integrity of people who promise that items are working and take your money and then it does not work!

On the other hand we picked up some bargains and that was great. Some items where only R5 which was in out budget. So there is good and bad. I am still fuming as I will have to call the manufactures on Monday to try and find out what the cause of the problem is with the headset and take things from there.

In my own life I base it on honesty, transparency and integrity and I expect the same from those whom I meet along the path and journey of life.

But, in realty we know that is not true.

So it's back to the savings plan for me and will have to save over a longer period now as there are two items I would like to get to enhance my life (communications) so that I can help others and continue with my projects.

Yes...I have had three single tots of brandy and coke to calm me down and thank goodness I have  great partner who did not bite my head off.

We live such a simple life and even with this minor setback we will survive.

It does not help one to be upset and dwell on things and have negative energies surround you.

Its the excitement of assuming things will work and then having the carpet pulled from under your feet and having to go through all the emotions of disappointment and realty that you have just been through.

To me, well life carries on. The lesson for today is if you buy from a flea market don't expect things to work even if you are told.

Well guys, sigh, its just one of those days and I bid you all a great day and live life to the fullest.

Regards,

Mark

("whine, whine, whine")

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Saturday

Not much to update guys too exhausted, need to rest more and tomorrow I will give a decent update. Had problems with pc at home and have lost alot of work sigh, yet again.

I will just have to put aside more money for a laptop at the end of the month and it will take me another 6 months or so. So for the moment all projects are on hold or go slow due to circrumstances out of my control. That is the computer freezing after a windows update.

So had to format the drive and so on.

Have a blessed night guys.

Embrace life

The spiritual heart of us all brings much compassion and love to the world. We often loose our way along the path of life through the many storms that may come our way and just disintegrate under the pressures and disappointments.

 

God in his love touched man from the very begriming of creation and gave man reign over the earth, without war and famine. It is man who has stirred wars and through his thirst for power and own gratification has brought upon himself almost the ruin of the whole world. Yet great men arose from the dust like Gandhi and Mandela who make an impact on the world through their gift of love, forgiveness and compassion.

 

 

 

In return we should embrace those in need and give of ourselves freely and bring joy to all those who are suffering. Bridge the gaps that have been closed and enhance the lives of those in any small way that we can. To share the breath of life and protect those who can not protect themselves. Stand for human rights and stand our ground for the sake of dignity for all the millions out there.

Not to ignore the pleas of help but to do something constructive and proactive.

When you where held in the time of need and your tears where dried, did you not feel comforted and loved? In the same way you can comfort some stranger.

Bury all stigma and rise from the cultural indifferences and shine and let all see that there is still humanity in us all!

I try each day in some small way to make a difference in someone's life.

 

Let us carry those in our arms when they can no longer fend for themselves. Show compassion and love in all things. There is so much joy and happiness one can receive from helping another.

 

Hebrews 1:3“The Son is the radiance of God's glory and the exact representation of his being, sustaining all things by his powerful word. After he had provided purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty in heaven.” Brought to you by BibleGateway.com. Copyright (C) NIV. All Rights Reserved.

I live by faith and love life to the fullest, today was busy at work again and its tiring. Yet I still am strong for myself and my partner. Its more than love that keeps me going. The zeal and passion for others just keep me going. I am so happy when the weekend comes along as this is the only time that I can rest. I am proud of the work that I do even though I may not have all the tools and resources at hand. I am always content in all the things that I do. I have come along way and encourage all those that are HIV+ to love life and not to let it get them down n any way.

As for my work colleagues, if it was not for the daily positive input and support where would I be. In return I work hard and give more than 100% back to them, no matter what they ask.

Friends, once again its time for me to go to bed as I am tired, one day I will go on holiday with my partner and I don't know when that is ever going to be, we will just have to see.

I promise you this, that I will never surrender to HIV but overcome and live a healthy life and keep on with the work that I do. Reaching out to the many souls out there.

Wishing you all a blessed day

 

Mark Farrell

Tuesday The 8th Of March 2008 Update

My dear beloved friends and all those who are either affected and infected by HIV/AIDS, greetings and salutations to you all.

Well its been almost three days since my last update. I had a peaceful day at home on Saturday and Autumn has arrived at last. Last week Friday the trees where still green now they are changing colour just two days later. So yippee, winter is around the corner.

I love life and no matter how much I struggle with the dementia and other HIV related issues, I smile and carry on. My strength comes from within my self and the fighter that I am. I am a mere soul who gives his best to humanity to make another life reach the goals they have set.

As tired as I am every day from work, I still read my emails and try my best to reply to all in person, but please forgive me if I am a day or two late.

I am grateful to have a circle of quality friends and acquaintances that surround me on a daily basis. There is one thing although some may hate me for their own personal reasons and may have hurt me, I do not hold any grudge against them and no matter what they have done, I will still greet them and send them a birthday and XMAS card even if they do not do the same. As long as I know that I have dignity and there is no anger when the sun go's down I am content.

There are so many of you out there that don't have the basics of life, please do not give up! If I can make it over these past years so can you.

Yes there is times when I get home and I am sad and depressed but that is human nature but I don't let it control me or affect others. I share my inner feelings and convictions with my partner and have a full transparent relationship and open communication with him all the time.

We both love life to the fullest and one day we both will make great life skill trainers.

The gift I would like to share with you all is patience and consideration for all life.

   

Let us as men embrace the world with love and compassion. Leave war and our own insecurities behind.

Feed the orphans, poor and needy.

Give of ourselves to the nation and peoples of the world.

Dry the tears of those who cry due to HIV/AIDS, poverty, rape, cold, hunger and loss of family members due to the pandemic.

Stop invading other countries for our own greed, but enhance those countries in need and heal the broken nations through the message of peace and hope.

"O man, embrace your inner self and touch the heart of the world"

Many read my blog every day, I extend my hand out to those who wish to post comments and wish to add to my blog. Join me together we can make a better world for all.

Its never too late to do something or say you are sorry.

On another subject, I have applied for a MediAlert bracelet with my HIV+ status and have provided my medical records. I have taken a step to wear this bracelet in the hope of taking the fear of been HIV+ and the stigma's attached to been open about your personal status. I am aware of the risks I am taking by been open about my status in this way, but I respect the life of others just incase I am in an accident, I would not like to infect others, even by accident.

Its just my personal responsibility to insure not just my own safety but those who will assist me one day in an accident as well.

You are most welcome to comment on this as well. Remember that I have made this choice on my own for no gain except be an example to the many out there, that if you are comfortable with your status and are open with no threat to your own security due to community or other stigma's, then follow my example.

I fear no man except God and that is my personal spiritual belief as only He has total control of your life and destiny.

 

Romans 5:10“For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!” The love of God should be embraced and shared with the world. Fear of the unknown disappeared when I found the unconditional love of God and the depth of his wisdom which I share with those I come across. I live by example that others may follow no matter what culture or belief they may have. Let us reconcile our inner insecurities, fears by loving ourselves first and sharing the gift of love and wisdom and live life to the fullest - Mark Farrell "The Rose Of Life (c) 1990-2008

 

I wish I could do more......................

But there are too little hours in the day and to little days in the year to accomplish the things I would like to do.

Its with this hope in humanity I look toward the future and to see a turn around in the many insecurities regarding HIV/AIDS in the world.

Good night all, rest well you are all in my prayers and in my heart. Please pray for me that he will bless me and that he will provide for me so that I can provide for those in need.

Mark

Sunday 6th Of April 2008

Well guys I have been replying too many emails today and am trying to get back on track with many outstanding issues regarding future projects and so on. It’s not easy had so little time to attend to all things but as I said it has to be done.

 

 

Life is so precious and we need to embrace every second of the day and not waste one iota of time. I still have the passion to tie in between my work and future projects as this keeps me motivated and upbeat. Recently I have had reviews and emails that have brought much joy. There are so many positive outcomes from my blog and is reaching people all over the world. I would like to encourage all those who have written to me to continue living life with dignity and hope.

 

Implement the coping mechanisms that I have shared and in return you share them with others and inspire their daily life. As you have seen over the many years I have been through some very troubled times and through all of this I have overcome all odds and this by the grace of God.

 

If I can turn the tide by rechanneling my energies back into the community that they may be blessed as they bless me when I see positive creative results.

 

You are always welcome to email or contact me about anything, by now you know that I am honest and transparent in all things. If I don’t know the answer I will do research and seek advice from others with wisdom. I will always get back to you.

 

I am blessed to have so many friends such as you.

 

I will update soon again.

 

I live not for myself but for all those affected and infected by HIV/AIDS

Mark Gavin Farrell

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Week in review Sunday 6th April 2008

Well its been one of those long working weeks again. Busy as hell at work and I still have not had the chance to even work on my project or get around to doing anything. I just have the chance to glance at some emails and reply and then go and rest. Well at least my life returns to normal on Monday when I can rest at home and not take calls as the boss is back.

I can understand when he used to do all these things and more and still have to take calls late at night. He is a person that gives so much of himself and the clients.

Derek and I had dinner at Sauls a local restaurant dance club all combined in Greenpoint. (Sauls The Venue) This was on Monday passed since they run a special for two hamburgers for the price of one. It was great.

We are starting to socialize even though we cant do this all the time as I have said we felt bad when our quality friends always sponsored us. We live a humble life and take all that comes our way with vigour and overcome all the negative energies with positive results. I suppose we are conditioned to accept what life brings our way with a realistic outlook and anticipation.

I have joined Medialert and registered myself for tag to wear incase I become ill or in an accident so that the doctors and ambulance crew are aware of my HIV+ status. I have taken this step in my things to do to set an example that one should not fear having your status known incase of an emergency.

I know that I can but there are many who cant take the step that I have taken. As soon as the tag arrives I will take a photo and publish it here. My personal view is that it is a good idea to have a Medialert tag in any emergency to not only to notify what medication you are on but your entire medical history. I do realise that many cant do this due to stigma and fear but I want to be one of the first to set an public example  and be open about my status in this way.

So I will practice what I preach.